Just checking in..

Noooo! The power of the ANZAC bikkies was too strong! I couldn't say no. :(
But, I didn't actually eat it. I did that whole 'Chew n Spit' thing. So gross.
So I put it down as 10 cals, just in case I accidentally swallowed some. Should I have put it as more or less, or is 10 cals a good guess?

Including that, I've had 190 calories today so far. So much better than the last few days.
For dinner I'm just going to have what I had last night, so that's only another 130 cals.
I think that's a pretty frickin' good day calorie wise. :)

Aaand I'm about to exercise, so that'll bring my Net intake down even more!
Yay for good days like this!!

Weighed myself today at the usual time, lost a little more. Slowly but surely.

Made plans for Saturday to go downtown with a friend from school. Her jerky boyfriend broke up with her, so she wanted some company. Then that night we're going to another friends to watch movies.
I think I can get away with a fasting day! Woo Hoo!
I haven't fasted for months.
So looking forward to this.

Stay strong
xx


----------------EDIT----------3:00pm------------

Ok, exercising done.
Burnt 410 calories (not as good as yesterday, I know),
which puts my net intake at the moment as -220.
Dinner is only going to be 130 cals.
YAY YAY YAY!! I have a negitive net intake today!!
Crazy proud of myself!!
:D
Thats a hell of a lot better than yesterday! :)

I have the Exercise Bike... and its a senior citizen.

I got the bike, I got the bike, I got the bike!!!
Eeeee!!
It looks older than me, but I have it!!!

It was obviously born before the digital era. Haha.
Its handle bars are kinda rusty, and there is a dial thingy that shows how fast I go and how far I've gone, but the seat is new. :)
I love it!

I went for a weigh in at Tony Ferguson this morning... And I have lost... *drumroll please*...

2.7kg

this week!!

Yay for me!
I bought my first pack of cigarettes yesterday. :O
I have smoked before, I just bought my own. I felt very 18 and grown up haha.

Ugh, I think I had about 800 calories in the form of Vodka and Blood Orange mix last night.
But I got verrry happy, haha.
I never get 'drunk,' I get happy!

But Ohmigod, I think I said something to my friends about my... eating issues.
Friend 1 was trying to make me eat bread, to soak up some of the alcohol. She took my drink away until I ate half the bread, so I tried to humor her. I hadn't eaten anything that day anyway.
Problem is, I vaguely remember saying to Friend 2, 'Ew, I don't even remember the last time I ate bread. I haven't even had that much to drink, I just haven't eaten since yesterday morning!'

Stupid, stupid, stupid!!

Friend 3 kept asking questions then, little subtle ones about eating, that I didn't realise I was digging myself a hole before I was way, way down. :/
She was like, 'don't worry about calories, just love yourself!' And I was like, 'but there's to frickin' much to love!'
She just looked at me then, and said 'Amy, I am very worried about your eating habits and relationship with food.'
She looked so sad and worried! I felt frickin' terrible.

But eh. I will be skinny.

My Bike! <3