Just me rambling about crap. :)

Ok. So I spent a week at Dads, and ate everything in sight. (literally.)
Then the day I came home to Mums I went to an 18th, and got messy drunk. :p
Then in the last 6 days I have eaten so, so much frickin crap.
If it was edible, I ate it.

And I have gained about a kg.
On one hand, I'm like, "Wahhhhh! A whole kg! I'm fat, I'm faaaaattt!!"
But on the other hand, "Hey, two weeks of eating like a cow, and drinking like half a bottle of vodka, and whole bottle of full sugar, full fat, full everything soft drink. And I've only gained one kg."

So eh. Both sides have good points.
But I'm actually getting off my butt and getting back into this. I have my black coffee (love) and for lunch I'm either having either 56 cal soup, or a small salad.. Not sure yet.

Is it bad that I don't count the calories from the fruit I eat? I just cant remember which ones are negative calorie, and how to count those, so I just don't count them.
I try not to eat to much fruit, so I don't think it's that bad...

I've been watching Gossip Girl for the last 3 days.
Blair Waldorf = best thinspo!
I started reading the books when I was like 15, and my God, all I have ever wanted to be since then is Blair.

Leighton Meester is so gorgeous.
Sigh. If only I was pretty :p

Ok, I know you guys don't want to hear about my love life (or lack there of) but I have to have a little freak out.
A few nights ago I got a message on Facebook from this guy. And almost every night since then he and I have stayed up late talking.
Problem is, I already dated him once.
And he's a raging pot head.
No future.
My parents hate him.
My friends hate him
God, I hate him!
And yet, I keep talking to him... :/
Rah. I just need to get it together.
Any who, that's pretty much it.
Stay strong xx

Don't you love it when you lose when you expected to gain?

So happy right now.
I ate like a friggin' cow over the last 3 days, and didn't exercise, weighed myself today, and I lost weight.
Only 0.1 of a kg, but still. I was seriously expecting like, a half a kg gain!
But yes, that has made my morning. :)

Its a bit past midday now, and all I've had is a black coffee for breakfast, and I'm having another one now for lunch.
I love black coffee. Haha.

Been working on my Ana diary all morning. Looking pretty cute, if I do say so my self. :)
Its got all my favorite thinspo pictures and quotes in it, as well as my measurements, weights, notes to my self, how I'm feeling, goals, and all that sort of stuff.
Yep. Its got everything.

If Mum ever finds it I'm royally boned!

I used to have all the pictures and quotes on loose sheets of paper, and had them hidden behind a picture on my wall in my room. I guess I'll just see if it can hold the weight of the book.

My weight loss is slowing down a bit. I'm terrified that I'm about to plateau.
Please God no, because I have no idea how to get off one. :O

I'm really worried about one of the other girls on here that I was following. Her blog is Bonjour Bones.
Please can anyone tell me if she's alright? Her last post was very worrying, I'm a bit scared she's hurt herself. If anyone can find out, please tell me?
Stay strong
xx

QUOD ME NUTRIT, ME DESTRUIT

Well that was a freaking ordeal and a half. I just spent an entire HOUR trying to add a weight loss ticker to my blog. I am pathetic. :p

In other news, this under-1000-calories-a-day thing has not worked yet. Actually, I gained half a kg! Though, I will admit, I have not done any real exercise, so, that may be a factor. But still.

Super nervous/excited/stressed about my 18th, which is in like, 14 days! But whos counting. ;)
I really have to get organised. I'm planning on having lunch with family, then having friends from school over that night. So, I have to get my ass into gear if I want that to happen!

Did a little more work on my Ana scrapbook yesterday. I love it. I have great thinspo pictures and quotes  covering the pages, and a few stickers to pretty it up. It makes a good distraction when I feel weak.

I've been working up the courage to comment on other peoples blogs, and have commented on a few now. So proud of myself! Who knew you could be shy even over the internet?!

I've started reading the Pretty Little Liars series again. Hanna Marin=Thinspo! Its great :)
Knowing her backstory is so much better than just looking at some skinny girl or reading quotes.

And I think thats all for now :)

"Nothing tastes as good as thin feels"

I really need to get a decent set of scales :p
Last time I weighed myself on scale #1, and I'm 94.5kgs. I weighed myself on scale #2, and I'm frigging 97kgs!! WTF??
I'm gonna go with scale #1. Makes me happier :)

Haven't got my exercise bike yet... I really need it though... I can only lose so much weight by restricting... I have to do some exercise...

I spent my afternoon listening to music and googling thinspo... I <3 the before and after pictures... They are a great motivation for me. I figure if those girls can do it, so can I!!