I am pretty much a tub of lard.

Ugh.
I am so frigging disgusted with my self right now. I actually feel full. I don't even remember the last time I felt like this. I'm such a fatty. :p
Seriously.
I woke up at 11 this morning, and know what I had for breakfast?
Frigging cake! I am insanely embarrassed to say that, but its true. I had cake, and then I had two pieces of toast, just because it was there.
You know who has cake for breakfast?
Lard-ass fattys with no will power, that's who.

*le sigh.*
Now I have that out of my system, I feel a little better.
In other news....
18th birthday party's are a baaaaad idea. I went to two last week, my friends, who for the sake of anonymity will be called C, and my own.
Crazy amounts of food consumed, and even crazier amounts of empty calories in the form of alcohol were consumed.
*another le sigh.*

I swear that starting right this very minute, I am back on the wagon.
I will resume restricting, counting calories, and hating myself for days if I binge.
That really sounds pretty terrible, just printed there in black and white, but it really is my lifeblood. I would have nothing to do, to aim for if I didn't have Ana.
So I thank her, for sticking with me, even after all the times I ignored her and ate the stupid food.

But yes. On a happier note, I am finally 18!
Woo! :D
I can finally do everything Ive been doing for the last 5 years, legally. Haha :)
That's such a tacky line, but Ive always wanted to use it!
Honestly though, its a lie.
I was a terribly good kid. I only got drunk like, 3 times, and smoked twice I think?
I really was the goody goody!

On another happy note, I weighed myself at the beginning of the week of the two 18ths, and at the end of the week, and I only gained 0.1 of a kg. Thank gosh.
I really thought it would be much more than that.

But anyway, I should be off, as I have to get ready to go to the movies with some friends :)
And I wont eat any of the fatty cinema food!
:)

QUOD ME NUTRIT, ME DESTRUIT

Well that was a freaking ordeal and a half. I just spent an entire HOUR trying to add a weight loss ticker to my blog. I am pathetic. :p

In other news, this under-1000-calories-a-day thing has not worked yet. Actually, I gained half a kg! Though, I will admit, I have not done any real exercise, so, that may be a factor. But still.

Super nervous/excited/stressed about my 18th, which is in like, 14 days! But whos counting. ;)
I really have to get organised. I'm planning on having lunch with family, then having friends from school over that night. So, I have to get my ass into gear if I want that to happen!

Did a little more work on my Ana scrapbook yesterday. I love it. I have great thinspo pictures and quotes  covering the pages, and a few stickers to pretty it up. It makes a good distraction when I feel weak.

I've been working up the courage to comment on other peoples blogs, and have commented on a few now. So proud of myself! Who knew you could be shy even over the internet?!

I've started reading the Pretty Little Liars series again. Hanna Marin=Thinspo! Its great :)
Knowing her backstory is so much better than just looking at some skinny girl or reading quotes.

And I think thats all for now :)