Father's Day :)

Not much to report.
Been living off black coffee. :)
Only 4 calories a cup.
4 calories!!
It's great. :)

Not to much exercising done today, only burnt 219 cals. :p
It's Fathers Day today, and I got to see Dad, which is good, I miss him.
Went to my Grandparents place to see my Pa, and had to eat a bit.
My Nan set out plates of biscuits, and cakes, and ugh. She is an incredible cook. Dammit.
I had one biscuit and two small pieces of cake. I estimated high and put it down as 400 calories.

Don't know what dinner will be yet.
So far my net intake is only 193cals.
So I should be safe for dinner.

Sorry for such a boring post :p
Stay strong
xx

[Insert appropriate title here]

Woohoo, going out to Dad's for a few days! :)
Although, that means no Internet. :(

I think my 500-cal-a-day idea is a little drastic. The two TF shakes I have to have a day are 213 cals each. So I have 426 cals before dinner. Hmmm. Not gonna work. Drat.
I think I'm gonna up it to about 800 cals. If I stay under that for a few days, I'll bring it down to 600.
I'll just see how I go.

Went running and on the exercise bike this morning. Burnt off around 219 calories. Yay for me!
No bike out at Dad's though, so I'm gonna have to rely on the running. Ugh. Not my favourite exercise.
I would love to join the gym again. Lovelovelovelovelove. But it just isn't gonna happen. FML.

I hate myself for drinking the other night. All my hard work over the last week? Gone!!
I guess 800 extra calories in a day will do that.
Damn my ability to not throw up when I'm drunk. *Sigh*

I'm getting a bit worried that I'm not gonna make it to the 80s in time for my appointment with Dr Bitchface.
Damned if I'm gonna let him call me fat again, though.
Grrrrrr.

Rah. I should go pack. But I hate packing. :p
Screw packing. I'm just gonna look at thinspo. :D
xx

I am a bit of an idiot...

OK... So I may have cut my leg with a razor blade... On purpose. :/
Stoopid!
I did it once, just cause I could. Just a little cut. Then a bigger one, still little though.
Then I went a little crazy, and it went rather deep. :p
I had a slight panic attack at all the blood... ugh. I hate blood. :p
I don't care how good it may have felt... never doing that again.
I said I would never go back to that stage in my life, and I'm not.

Anywho!
Ate like a cow at the party, but went running both days I was at Dad's.
I think my little brother may have caught me purging after lunch the other day... eh. He didn't mention it, so I hope he didn't notice.

Now, I am going to watch Bones. :D
Stay strong :)

Lowest weight yet! :D

Eat less, weigh less. That's all I need to know. :)
I didn't have dinner last night, (told Mum I had been eating all day) and all I've had today is one tub of no fat yogurt (70cals). Plus I went for a walk last night.
And I'm down 0.3 of a kg already :)
Aaaah, life is good.

And I am really honestly truly going to ask Mum about the gym when she gets home.
I have been working on my Human Resources Cert 4 all morning, so she should be happy with me :)
I'm off to Dad's again for the weekend today. His side of the family are throwing me an 18th tomorrow.
Sigh.
So much food.
Ah well.

In other news!
Right now, I am at my all time lowest weight, since I stopped growing. :D
I mean, I was about 70kgs in yr 10, but I was about a foot shorter too. :p
But yes, from now on in, its uncharted territory! If I keep losing weight, I will always be the lightest I have ever been. :D
Pretty exciting thought.

Any who, I had better be off back to studying. It takes awhile for a dumbshit like me to process all the big words! Haha :)