Showing posts with label Binge. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Binge. Show all posts

Sunday, 28 August 2011

Hunger hurts but starving works.

Hello m'dears. This post may be a long one I'm afraid.

Facts:
1. I have gained weight.
2. I am not going to be in the 80s in time for my doctors appointment.
3. I am not going to lose weight by reading blogs and looking at thinspo.

I cannot change these things. But these things are "not a problem, just a factor."
(If anyone guesses what book that quote comes from, you are my new best friend, and I will kiss your feet.)

As of today, I have set a new calorie limit: Net of 800 per day.
Under that is great. Over that is not acceptable.
I will exercise (in some way, shape or form) everyday.
I WILL NOT BINGE.
I will not purge, because it makes my teeth icky. :p
I will not drink alcohol because I don't need the calories. (Also because I apparently cant keep my mouth shut when I'm drunk. No more accidental revealing of eating issues.)
I will try not to hurt myself again, but no promises there. (My leg looks fine BTW, bit of a scar though.)
If I plateau, I will cry.


Actual-real-serious-non-changing deadline and goal weight:
75kg by 31st December 2011*
*Weight and date subject to change.

I know I'll change my mind a hundred times between now and then, but for now, this is the plan.
Until next year.
Then onwards to more weight loss!

I honestly have no idea what I would do if I wasn't trying to lose weight. Like, my life would have no purpose. How sad. :p

Ok, that's all for now I think.
Well, there is something else bugging me, but I'm not ready to put it into words. It'll make it seem to real.

Stay strong.
xx


(BTW, I'm not actually kissing anyones feet. Ew.)

Wednesday, 24 August 2011

I'm such a wale, I should just change my name to Moby Dick.

Times I binged in the last 2 days: 10000000
Times I purged/exercised in the last 2 days: 0



Fuck my life.