Damn, damn, damn!!
So close! I can't believe I went over the calorie limit again! 300 calories is all I should have eaten today. I've had 383 today so far, and mum is making me eat dinner. Ugh. Disgusting, fatty steak, but on the plus side, veggies with it. Definantly not eating it all.
I love how fast my mind is giving in to Ana this time. In the past, I had thoughts of, Is this healthy? This is stupid, not natural, I'm making my self sick.
Ha. This is not stupid, unnatural, or unhealthy. This is perfect. This is what defines me.
My mum and I went to this incredible coffee shop I used to eat from all the time. Today, I looked at the fatty foods, and calorie loaded drinks, and didn't want any. At all. They would only make me even more fat and disgusting.
Hmm. Mabye I will change today to a 400cal day, and have 300cal tomorrow.
Maybe tomorrow Ana will be pleased with me.
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