Family drama going on at the moment, and on top of that, Mum just found out that I smoke. Insert big lecture here. :p
So I came back with, I'm 18 damnit! I can do what I want! And she gets all pissy because I didnt tell her.
Gah! I give up!!
I go to my room, because I cant listen to her martyr act and trash talk my dad any more, and she follows me, and says, 'this isnt to help you lose weight is it?'
And ohmyGod, I was so insanely close to saying 'You have no idea what I do to lose weight!'
Maybe that would shut her up for a while.
'Yeah, thats right. You know when I was stick thin in yrs 10 and 11? You know how I got like that? I stopped eating, and started throwing up! You know those scars on my arms and legs? I do remember how I got them! My razor was my best friend when I was in yr 10 and 11! Thats what I do to LOSE WEIGHT!!'
Some one remind me why I dont just tell her everything, and prove to her that I can do fucking anything.
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Sunday, 21 August 2011
Friday, 19 August 2011
Just me whinging. :p
What is wrong with me??? I have zero will power at the moment. :(
I used to be able to refuse anything. Now, nope. I just obsess and think about it, and then I eat it. :p
No will power!!
I went off TF for the last few days. I was out at dads, and I just can't stick to it out there. I don't know why, I just have never been able to. But eh, I am home now, and being good.
Have the headache from hell right now. According to the TF book, its from carb withdrawal. Yay! I must be doing something right. :)
I've been listening to 4st 7lb by Manic Street Preachers non stop lately. Some parts of it, the lyrics are like, exactly how I feel.
That describes how I feel perfectly. And this:
I used to be able to refuse anything. Now, nope. I just obsess and think about it, and then I eat it. :p
No will power!!
I went off TF for the last few days. I was out at dads, and I just can't stick to it out there. I don't know why, I just have never been able to. But eh, I am home now, and being good.
Have the headache from hell right now. According to the TF book, its from carb withdrawal. Yay! I must be doing something right. :)
I've been listening to 4st 7lb by Manic Street Preachers non stop lately. Some parts of it, the lyrics are like, exactly how I feel.
"Problem is diet's not a big enough word
I wanna be so skinny that I rot from view
I want to walk in the snow
And not leave a footprint
I want to walk in the snow
And not soil its purity"
I wanna be so skinny that I rot from view
I want to walk in the snow
And not leave a footprint
I want to walk in the snow
And not soil its purity"
That describes how I feel perfectly. And this:
"Mother tries to choke me with roast beef
And sits savouring her sole Ryvita
That's the way you're built my father said
But I can change, my cocoon shedding"
And sits savouring her sole Ryvita
That's the way you're built my father said
But I can change, my cocoon shedding"
Is totally true. My Mum hardly eats, but is always cooking biscuits or cakes, and tries to force me to eat. Like, all the time.
When I used to complain about how fat I am, Dad would say that's just how your built.
UH!!
OK. Enough complaining and bitching and feeling sorry for my self.
Sorry you had to read my whining. If you made it all the way to the end, you get a shiny gold star. If you didn't make it this far, I don't blame you! :)
x
When I used to complain about how fat I am, Dad would say that's just how your built.
UH!!
OK. Enough complaining and bitching and feeling sorry for my self.
Sorry you had to read my whining. If you made it all the way to the end, you get a shiny gold star. If you didn't make it this far, I don't blame you! :)
x
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