I hate this!

Rah! I am stuck!
Not plateau, just stuck.
I can never seem to get away from 95-94kgs. I always seem to be somewhere between there!
It's driving me crazy!!

Uh. On a better note, I got Wasted. :)
I bought it on iBooks on my iPod.
It's so good! Like, better than I expected!

Tried to purge again today, still nothing.
Rah. My gag reflex is like, broken. :(
Which is super lame.
Sigh.

On a relatively great note, I lost 0.4 of a kg since yesterday! Yay yay yay!
Half of my gained weight is gone! :D
Just gotta keep working on the other half, and then more.

Stay strong
xx

Two steps forward, one step back.

Ok, now I'm past all the crying and eating, I can get back to business.
I did gain (FML), 0.8kg.
Not as bad as I was expecting, I thought it would be more like 1 and a half kgs.
So that's good. :)
That should take me about a week to lose. Little longer probably.
But that's ok. I've lost it before, I can do it again.
I have another 18th coming up, around the end of the month/the first of next month.
I want to lose as much as possible for it.
I'm thinking around 1.2/1.3 kgs, if I keep losing at the same pace I was before.
Its not that much, but better than nothing, I guess!

I really want to read Wasted by Marya Hornbacher, but I cant find it anywhere!
Everyone I've talked to says how good it is, but it is impossible to get. :p
The library doesn't have it, but the bookshops I've gone to say they can order it in, but I don't really want to have to explain to my Mum why I'm going to so much trouble to get a book about anorexia.
That could be an awkward conversation.

Anywho, hope you guys are doing better than me :)
Stay strong
xx